Over the weekend, a simple but major event happened that completely overwhelmed me but thankfully, also reminded me to slow things down and that I need be more thoughtful about my actions. (Lets just say it involved having one too many drinks and I am not proud of it). It was a situation where I totally overreacted for no reason. I know we have all been there. No one did anything wrong and I’m not sure why it happened, but I do know one thing, I am happy it happened. I’m happy it happened because it brought me so low to the point where I clearly needed to take a step back and analyze what really happened. Sometime when we or maybe its just me, mess up we think oh well, sh** happens and think “well they say everything happens for a reason, right?” but we do not actually discuss why it happened and what we can do to fix it and prevent it from happening again. This time in particular, with time, it allowed me to wake up and take a million steps back to think about why I overreacted, why I let myself portray myself as unclassy in front of someone else.
That is definitely not the proper, basic etiquette I was raised with and always had. At the moment, and days/weeks prior I was putting too much energy into things of my past which I never do and was never like that. Maybe I was being extra sensitive because I cared more than I thought I did. When you don’t take to time to be present and focus on what is going on in front of you, things can get out of hand if you don’t take the time too think about and take of them then and there. Coincidentally I was listening to someone talking about this energy shift in a podcast that reminded me that I was never that type of person or never did I put my energy into things that are not important and especially things we cannot control. Those kinds of emotions were allowing myself to act like someone I am not. It is important to keep reminding yourself that. Putting those negative, unproductive thoughts out there only makes the situation worse. Whatever energy you put out there is what you get back. When you put the emotion that you are confident and strong it comes off as attractive and you will attract the same.
Bottom line: give things that are not important, uncontrollable and/or unreasonable ABSOLUTELY no energy. It not worth your time.
We have only so much energy (levels) we wake up with everyday and if we waste that energy on the unimportant, we are depriving ourselves of things that could be positive and actually benefit us (easier said than done, but it takes practice to ignore, ignore, ignore what we can’t control). If someone wants to do something wrong to you, literally whatever, that is their problem, it does not affect you and there is nothing you can do about it or control it. Just continue to be the genuine, loving, whole hearted person you know you are. If they don’t see that in you and see you for who you really are, their loss not yours. There is no point in wasting your energy. I have always had this mentality, I remember always saying and thinking these exact words as a young girl. Funny how you were a better version of your self when you were young and careless, we let certain situations allow ourselves to think the opposite but that will not happen, we can only grow.
Time to wake up again and remind ourselves who we are, what we are worth and where we have always stood.
Do not let certain people/relationships or situations try to tell you different. You know who you are and have always been and can only be better than yesterday. Its our time. Its now or never. It will be a fight but a fight we will always win.
With that being said, I need to go start my PA school applications (oh. yay.). Thanks for the time and hopefully it is somewhat relatable. Side note: don’t ever drink too much wine, ever.
Ashley, xoxo
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